I have probably sat down to write this post about 10 times now. However, I think I may be able to actually finish it this time. It’s probably way too late to be saying happy new year, welcome 2019 and all that jazz isn’t it? I think it probably is.
So I thought I would come on here and just have a little catch up with you all. I have been SO absent these last few months and honestly I don’t have much of a reason for it. Other than the fact that I just wasn’t mentally in the right place to even think about writing a blog post. However, things have got better because here I am writing one!
What went down…
A lot of different things happened towards the end of last year (i won’t go into details) including some big changes which I really wasn’t ready for. Yes looking back they did need to happen but my god! I wasn’t ready to deal with them.
Through all of these changes, I realised a lot about myself & who I want to be, along with the things I need to focus on. One of them being myself! I have finally accepted that I am the most important person in my life and I come first, as selfish as it may sound. I have to do what is best for me and what will make me the happiest. This took me a long time to realise… believe me. I spent so much time worrying/stressing and getting frustrated trying to do right by everyone else that I only ended up hurting myself more.
What sparked the change…
What was it that sparked the change? I think I just knew that something had to give. Something had to change because if it didn’t I would only fall into a darker place. I spoke to someone professionally about everything, how I was feeling, the changes that had happened and found ways to deal with them. I honestly can’t explain how much of a better place I am in now.
All in all December wasn’t too bad had a nice time with friends and family. I spent lots of time enjoying myself and partying but that’s what you do at Christmas is it not? Although, I think a month of partying was long overdue, but it’s a new year and I am ready to hit the ground running.
I have so many things that I want to achieve this year and I plan to do my damn best to make sure they all happen! I don’t plan on sharing my “goals” for the year because they are personal and I want to stay focused without the pressure of people knowing them. With that being said, I will be doing a post at the end of the year (she says) where I will tell you all what they were and how I got on with achieving them.
From now on…
As you can probably tell this post is all a bit of a mess and just me rambling really but bare with me it’s been a while… In terms of my blog and where I want to take my blog this year? I don’t really have any big goals with it. I just want to carry on doing what I love and see where it takes me!
I’m feeling good and I’m very happy at the moment. There’s still lots to work on but so far it’s all going well. I will speak to you all very soon I promise! If anyone has been feeling a little low or a bit lost just remember self belief is the highest form of power. Believe in yourself and you will get through anything!